I've been meaning to write my feelings and thoughts and the to make sense of it all I kept trying to make the perfect scenario to write Notebook, hot chocolate, a nice playlist and Alfie purring at my side But with work and the chores on my day off There's no time There's no time… Continue reading I’ve been meaning to write…
Category: Mari’s Diary
Letter #5- To you, my sort-of first love
It was like lightning shooting through my heart when I first saw you, Round eyes, cute nose and that cheek length hair that would give 90s heartthrobs a run for their money You were cute, but I didn’t know your age, thinking you were younger The girls talked about you, the cute, young guy that… Continue reading Letter #5- To you, my sort-of first love
I Want Revenge, But I Miss You More
Can't believe you. Why did you take so long? This sucks. A girl needs her dad. But also I felt more of your parent than your kid. All it takes for me is to be home sick in be for you to call. I'm not home most of the time because I don’t like it… Continue reading I Want Revenge, But I Miss You More
Letter #4- A letter to the Sun
"I'll miss you." I assume that's the most heard phrase you've heard in these last couple of days. But the meaning doesn't become any weaker. I will miss you, I miss you, I missed you. I was unaware of your passing until a week after, I honestly thought you were just really busy since you… Continue reading Letter #4- A letter to the Sun
Letter #3- To Them
Dear Dad, A day doesn’t go by when I don't think about you. It will be two years since I've seen you in person and my heart aches to see you again. I miss the snacks and drives to the beach with merengue blasting through the speakers, late night trips to buy ice cream and… Continue reading Letter #3- To Them
Letter #2- To Her
Hi honey, You're so small and precious. I'm sorry that mom put so much pressure on you when you were younger. I wish you had more days of being a real kid, instead of basically working a Monday through Friday both at school and "work", having to be the translator from Spanish to English and… Continue reading Letter #2- To Her
Letter #1- To Him
When I am writing this, it will be a week until my 23rd birthday. 12 years since you died and 15 years since you assaulted me. The memory of what you made me do all those years ago flash like every photograph my mom forced me to take with you after the incident. I was… Continue reading Letter #1- To Him
“I’ll do better by me”
I want to apologize to myself since I meant to keep this up as a log of my twenties and I'm barely halfway and I want to keep this up. I initially wanted this to be an art portfolio/writing but it's good to say what I'm feeling day to day. I always struggle to start… Continue reading “I’ll do better by me”
My dad did something bad
He did something bad and I haven't seen him in person since April I feel bad because the last time we spoke face to face, we fought But I don’t blame him for what he did, I would have done the same Months of bullying does that to a person Everyone around me feels bad for… Continue reading My dad did something bad
“How are you, emotionally?”
"How are you, emotionally?" I would like to say that I’m okay, I’m doing well, my anxiousness hasn’t acted up and I haven’t been depressed in a while. Been getting enough sleep and eating enough. Made friends with people who are like us but I don’t see them that often, only twice a week. Classes… Continue reading “How are you, emotionally?”
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